10 YA Books That Scarred Us For Life

Today is the 73rd birthday of YA staple Gary Paulsen, the author of over 200 novels, including Brian’s Saga (read: Hatchet and its ensuing sequels).  Hatchet is one of those books it seems like just about everyone we know has read, and just about everyone we know (ahem, including us) was at least a little bit scarred by it — or at the very least, picked up some important survival skills. So as a tribute to the author of this ubiquitous novel, and for a fun trip down memory lane, we’ve compiled a list of YA books that gave us some serious emotional wounds that we may or may not still be nursing a little bit. Click through to check out our list of YA books that totally scarred us for life, and let us know which ones still keep you up at night in the comments.

Hatchet, Gary Paulsen

In this novel, Brian’s plane crashes, leaving him alone in the wilderness with only his hatchet to rely on, staying alive on his wits and this one archaic tool. Okay, we learned some survival skills, but we can’t even bring hatchets on planes anymore. We can’t even bring Swiss army knives! We bought a Swiss army knife after reading this book and then realized it totally wouldn’t help in a plane crash situation! This book just reinforced our feeling that we would probably die if stranded in the wilderness for 54 days. Sigh.

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I'm surprised that I only saw The Yearling displayed once! Talk about a devastating novel! Jeesh! I found my way here because I just finished The Chocolate War. I will never stop thinking about this novel for my entire life. Scarred for sure. Not for the gentle pacifist.

a red fern can only be planted by an angle but only from a good angle that cares for people and if not it can never be planted and i bet their are more than twenty of diffent kinds of good angles up their evin if a bad angle hates someone and then they changed their mind about those people out their and the angle starts to care about the people and they turn into good angles then they can plant a red fern only if it is by the persone that they care about or the people that the angle cares about and it is true about the whole red fern thing

Picture Books: The Giving Tree/ Silverstein (how selfish! Giving should be two ways) The Lonely Doll/ Wright (mimicking spousal abuse, low self esteem, and other neurotic relationship dynamics -- of course at the time I read it I think the reaction was "Ugh! No Way!" (and flinging the book) totally hated these books when I read them as a kid -- found them deeply disturbing. J Books: A Summer to Die/Lowry Little Match Girl/Andersen Can we get more depressing, people?! (Shockingly sad -- totally cried my eyes out. made me realize at that point in my development, that depressing stories weren't my thing) RL/Adult books: One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest/Kesey Lord of the Flies/Golding Robber Bride & Cat's Cradle/Atwood 1984/Orwell Disturbing lesson learned from these book: people and societies suck and are scary (worse than "mostly harmless"). Would've much rather read about the better, more inspirational natures of people & have some happy (or at least satisfying, bittersweet endings) -- life could be challenging enough as is. The irony is that with these later books, I still find myself momentarily pondering over them (and this is decades later), so they're definitely well-written and thought-provoking and I'm sure meant to spur discussion (which is probably why some of these were assignment-type books to discuss in class later). PS: Loved the Narnia series & read them several times as a child. Didn't connect the death thing with getting there, but I recall I had an antique wardrobe as a child and would sometimes secretly nap in the thing with hopes that I'd wake up with some wintery coats appearing with a draft coming from the back of the closet [maybe that would be considered "scarred" but I prefer "secretly wistful" and "inspired" myself] ;)

The Wringer, by Jerry Spinelli. Not a pleasant read for an 8-year-old vegetarian. Love the list - why were we encouraged/required to read such dark, intense and haunting books?

Oh wait - scarred. I also at one point learned to read - but perhaps not so well. Disregard my idiocy above.

Also - who gives Animal Farm to a fourth grader? We didn't read it until 7th or 8th grade. See - I'm thinking perhaps most of you had bad timing.

What is wrong with all of you? I've read every book on this list, except one, and was never "scared" by them. Maybe your school/teachers didn't give them to you at the right time? I mean, we read Lord of the Flies in 9th grade - and although parts were way out there - I certainly wasn't scared by them. I did, however, teach me to keep my asthma a secret from the other kids. Perhaps it was growing up in the 80's with Garbage Pail Kids cards, You Can't Do That on Television, and Loony Tunes where the Coyote got crushed over and over with an anvil that warped me early and prepared me for good literature.

Animal Farm... yes, I understand the "Educational" aspects... but still, very disturbing to a 4th grader...

I was deeply scarred by anything by Enid Blyton...

I am in shock that no one has yet mentioned 'Unwind' by Neal Shusterman. Yes, it's a recent book, but it was the most disturbing thing I have ever read. When a parent is frustrated with a child, they can just "unwind" him (have his body divided into different parts to use medically--essentially, 'killing' him)? The scene when they unwound Roland (while he was awake the entire time) made me writhe back in horror as he slowly disappeared. I'm shivering thinking about it.

I enjoyed many of the books on this list, and even though I was a rather sensitive kid, only two books stand out as "scarring" me: The Pearl by John Steinbeck (NOT suitable for me at age 12), and "Lord of the Flies". I have a lot of trouble with a book that assumes the absolute worst in children. Clearly there were other factors at stake here (as in, a psychopathic leader/bully), and the generalizations made to all children seem more like "adultism" at its worst. I should include The Red Pony too--I felt it couldn't possibly be as dark, but I was wrong. Also "Lisa Bright and Dark" still scares me when I think of it--elective brain surgery and its macabre and sad results should never be a topic for young or sensitive types! I thought The Giver was beautifully written, and also enjoyed the sequels, as did my own children. I found the Narnia series patronizingly Christian as a kid.

Lord of the Flies was violent and the movie was worse. Why oh why did they make us read that book! Then there was Clockwork Orange, talk about nightmarish! And Catcher in the Rye, were they trying to teach us to swear? Why weren't we supposed to read heartwarming or funny or inspirational books. I was furious that I was forced to read this kind of stuff. I have read The Hunger Games (the first one only). Although it was a great read, I couldn't put it down, it gave me nightmares for weeks. I'm sure one day it will be required reading. So much to discuss and analyze. (P.S. If there are any spelling errors I take no responsibility. Why doesn't this thing have spellcheck?)

God, I loved any book where a kid died. I don't know why, but it just seemed so romantic and interesting that a child could die. My kids are the same way now. But, I hated the books like Sounder where an animal died. I still can't stand any book or movie where an animal dies. I was scarred for life by seeing Old Yeller at a birthday party when I was five.

You forgot the most scarring and bizarre of all... Heart of Darkness

Thank you very much. It never occurred to me that the end of The Giver might be a death hallucination. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Also, yes. The most traumatic thing about the His Dark Materials trilogy (Golden Compass, etc) aside from the horrible ending where two children in love can never see one another again, only able sit in the same place in different worlds one day a year and think of each other, was the horrible clutching sadness that I will never have a Daemon. To this day sometimes when I need a friend to stand with me I imagine mine on my shoulder. He's a red squirrel named Tobias. I'm actually tearing up a bit now, remembering that he will never be real.

Fifth grade was the year of traumatizing stories for me: Julie of the Wolves, A Taste of Blackberries and this horrible book called Beat The Turtle Drum, about a little girl who saves for years to rent a horse that she adored from down the road for her birthday. She finally saves up to rent the horse, climbs a tree to admire it in her own yard, and then the branch breaks and she dies. I think I also read Watership Down that year.

Flowers for Algernon. So sad!

'Scarred' to me implies a book that caused / continues to cause revulsion, terror, horror, nightmares etc rather than grief, yet lots of the books mentioned seem to have made the list because of the tear-factor. I don't think feeling sad or angry is the same as being 'scarred' - and often the books that made me feel most upset as a pre-adolescent (usually books about human cruelty, loss / death / fight to survive etc - especially if animals were involved) were the ones I read again and again. A cathartic preparation for the cruelties of the adult world, maybe?! Some of the ones mentioned were (some still are) among my favourites - Avalanche!, White Fang, Lord of the Flies, The Red Pony, Of Mice and Men, Sounder, The Last Battle... Others I don't think people have mentioned are Old Yella, The Yearling, Greyfriars Bobbie, Call of the Wild, The Snow Goose... all uplifting tales! But not one of them 'scarred' me - and I'll probably cry again the next time I read them. Bring it on! Others came out when I was older but still at high school - and I loved them then and now: Watership Down, for one. Good point about the lines between children's, adolescent, young adult and adult literature and the variety of titles people have mentioned cross all of these. Lines are blurry, individuals read differently according to interest / maturity / availability etc, and as UK writers have been saying, setting age recommendations is fraught with issues ... but however arbitrary and artificial, the lines exist at least as far as publishers, libraries, booksellers and schools are concerned. Not many titles on the '10 YA books...' list have been marketed for young adults at all. Seems unlikely that some of these would have been read for the first time when the writer was a teenager - but who knows?

Great piece. However: I wasn't freaking out about "dying" to go to Narnia (besides, the kids go to Narnia over and over previously without dying, so it's not exactly the only way) -- but I was upset that Susan didn't make it. Then I read an interview that said that Lewis never meant that Susan was permanently excluded -- just that she would have to find her own path to get back. I liked that a lot and it made me feel better. I was however totally traumatized by "Bridge to Terabithia," "Freak the Mighty," "Where the Red Fern Grows," and "The Giving Tree" (I love Shel Silverstein but hate this book). I'm okay with "White Fang" being on the list, but honestly, the end of "The Call of the Wild" is so much sadder!! "White Fang" at least ends sort of happily. I will never forget crying my eyes out at the end of "Charlotte's Web," but the one that was so much sadder, in a quiet way, was "Stuart Little." It's such a sweet book, but such a weird, downer ending. And totally agree with many of you -- I love Steinbeck but unfortunately, almost any of Steinbeck's shorter novels were so, so sad! "The Red Pony," "The Pearl," "Of Mice and Men," all killed me. I do love "East of Eden" -- it's amazing and one of my favorites, and more hopeful. Oh, and ITA :paula on "Ethan {Freaking} Frome." Good lord. Most depressing book in the history of everything. And I will never forget a YA book I read once called "Blood in the Snow," that I swear was simply the story of a kid who found a fox in a trap, and spent a week going back to visit it as it slowly died. I mean, people, I'll never get over that one. Meanwhile, mcat, what was so traumatizing about "Watership Down" (amazing book) that actually made you mad at the teacher who recommended it? It ends pretty happily... For me that's one of the best reading experiences of my life -- just so surprising, and beautifully written. I loved it. On the positive side: I would add two (superb) books by Robin McKinley, that have some tough moments but in the best way -- her Newbery-winning "The Hero and the Crown" (the heroine's battle with a gigantic dragon will stay with me forever), and "Deerskin" while okay for teens, is definitely not for kids, and which -- be warned-- does include a few pretty dark story elements (including incest and rape). I didn't find "His Dark Materials" traumatizing, just gorgeous and wonderful. They became some of my all-time favorite books. I can't agree on the VC Andrews books being additions to the list since they're so trashy -- I really wouldn't call them literature.

The Girl Who Owned A City (1977). Read it in 3rd grade and have spent the next 25 years identifying buildings that can be easily fortified every time I move to a new town...

What about Watership Down? We had rabbits as pets when I read that... I had to get mum to read the end to me the first time as I couldn't see I was crying so hard. Never forgave the teacher that recommended that book to me!

What I'm getting from all the comments just confirms what I've seen myself... that, for some reason, the books that win awards and thus end up being read in school more often than not have some disturbing element, usually many and varied. While I wouldn't shelter kids from all the darkness in the world and leave them defenseless when they meet it in real life, I wonder why our literature so seldom seems to at least leave a ray of hope. I read a lot in middle school and high school, but while they were not easy books, they were only books I chose independently. But I quickly learned that anything the school wanted me to read would be likely to haunt me for years. And so it has. Lord of the Flies is now the chief offender I name when I get on this rant. What a pitiless, sadistic thing it is to offer this to children.

No one's mentioned Lois Duncan? Daughters of Eve sticks out, but there were so many more.

Jaws anyone? I read it before seeing the movie. Also anything by Charles Dickens. I also agree with the Johnie Tremaine comment and does anyone remember Otto of the Silver Hand?

@paperairplanes--I realize that there is crossover appeal to these books, but they are not classified as Young Adult books. I'm a YA Librarian at a public library and I absolutely encourage patrons of all ages to explore books in different sections. To create a list of "Young Adult" books that have won Newbery Awards and are otherwise classified as Juvenile Literature, however, often gives people an inaccurate conception of what Young Adult literature is.

Speaking from the perspective of a middle school librarian, there are many books where the division between Juvenile and YA blurs. We have to have both in our school libraries. There are 6th graders reading The Giver AND The Hunger Games.

When will people figure out the difference between Young Adult and Children's/Juvenile Books!? Bridge to Terebithia, Where the Red Fern Grows, Hatchet and The Giver are all Juvenile Books--note that they have won awards for CHILDREN'S Books (in 3 of 4 cases the Newbery Award. If they were Young Adult books, they would have won the Printz Award).

How about "A Taste of Blackberries" I freak out around bees to this day.

Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George: I'm not sure that at age 11 I needed to read about attempted marital rape by a mentally handicapped boy.

Z FOR ZACHARIAH by Robert O'Brien -- one of the first "end of the world" books I ever read!

where the red fern grows makes me cry to this day...and I'm 39 now....I remember my mom picking me up from school as I was finishing it and I was inconsolable.

The Red Pony by Steinbeck was so upsetting to me. I was totally in love with horses and horse stories as a youngster and had no clue when I picked it up that horse death was involved!

can one be pleasantly terrified? then treasure island by robert louis stevenson is the book

ETHAN m-f-in' FROME. The guilt, the isolation, the melted snowflake on her cheek... BLAAGH! Put me off Romance forever.

I can't believe no one has mentioned author, Ray Bradbury!! The Martian Chronicles & The Illustrated Man had many vignettes that were scarey and stayed with me for a long time. Space horror is still a favorite genre of mine. Who's ready for Prometheus??!! Also, glad the ladies chimed in! When I was in elementary school I started reading V.C. Andrews books...the whole "Dollanganger Series" which included Flowers in the Attic, etc. There are still scenes in those books that I remember because it was so disturbing. Ick!! And before all this Twilight stuff...remember Anne Rice??

Of Mice and Men and One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.

I like the list, but I've never read Giver or Hatchet! I only read The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe and wasn't scarred by that. What I remember haunting me was Island of the Blue Dolphins, Flowers in the Attic and Lord of the Flies.

Go Ask Alice! I almost considered never doing drugs because of it.

I loved Island of the Blue Dolphin! But I don't remember why. . . I read Helter Skelter about the Manson killings when I was 15. I think I slept with the lights on for the next six years.

A good one today! What about A Wrinkle in Time with some kind of throbbing brain at the end - now that was the stuff of nightmares... Now I remember - where the Red Fern Grows had the teacher and the entire class (including myself) sobbing at the end. Purpose?

I almost forgot about Hatchet. Yes, that scarred me! I still remember some of the more gruesome parts.

I'm only on slide 2 of this list and I'm tearing up just remembering how SAD Where The Red Fern Grows is. UGH. I had blocked it out. I remembering reading it in 3rd grade as well and I don't even think I can handle now as an adult. I was in Catholic School at the time and was so broken up about the damn dogs. I asked the priest at my school if dogs go to heaven to which he replied "of course not. Dogs don't have souls." Way to fuck me up a bit more buddy!

Amber beat me to it. No list of this nature is complete without Flowers in the Attic, it's probably number one on most grown womens' lists of books that scarred them for life and haunt them to this day. It's not often, but I just had a FITA moment last week and referenced it!

I'm with George on this one. I've read the books, my daughter has read them, my friends, her friends, we've all seen the movies and I've never heard anyone come to that conclusion. Are we all missing something??

House of Stairs by William Sleator. The closing image of teenagers dancing when the stoplight changes color, as they've been programmed to do by these awful mind games they've "survived", has stayed with me for about 30 years.

Regarding Narnia, I just felt really bad for Susan. She didn't believe anymore. :( wahwowww. I remember The Pigman depressed me pretty good. And Go Ask Alice. Probably why I never tried hallucinogenics.